I have been feeling some major guilt as of late over the most frivolous thing. I know it may seem silly to some, but I have been worried about not being a good homemaker. I was looking in my pantry at my non-existent food storage, at my pile of clothes that needed to be hemmed, at my house that was in disarray, and at my garden that didn't quite get planted this year. After I scrutinized the situation that my house was in, the guilt came pouring in. I worried about E not knowing how to care for a home cause she didn't have a good example. I worried about my children thinking that I was a bad mother and J being annoyed that his home wasn't well maintained.
Then I looked at the lunch I just fed my daughter (Dinosaur chicken nuggets...), and at the bottle of formula I was feeding C. I became intensely worried that E was going to have weight issues because I didn't teach her how to eat healthy and C was going to have allergies because I didn't nurse him enough.
And...my visiting teaching supervisor called me to see if I did my visiting teaching. Ugh. I did try and dropped something off at their house, but I was given a new route this month and my companion tries at all costs to avoid my calls. So...basically...everything that I am "supposed" to be doing as a mother is not happening. It's really frustrating.
I have decided to do something about it!! (Although the guilt is not fully gone. I think it must be part of being a Mormon woman...) I have been very domestic! My goals this week were to learn to sew clothing and to can!
Check out this apron I sewed!! Isn't it cute??
Last night I canned peaches. There is my contribution to my weak food storage. Next week I plan to can salsa...and maybe chili sauce. It was actually kind of fun! Maybe I will give my visiting teachees some peaches...
Tomorrow, I am making thank you/birthday cards so that I can be a more thoughtful person.
My next goal is to work on not feeling guilty over silly things.
So, I think that guilt is a common problem among us- I've surely suffered from it! I've decided that my kids are growing up knowing they're loved, learning the gospel, and having fun, and I'm trying to let some of the little things go. You're sewing and canning- miles ahead of me :).
ReplyDeleteNice job! I'm so impressed! Honestly. I'm getting into the sewing thing, so much so that my FIL asked if I wanted a sewing machine!
ReplyDeleteI know the whole guilt thing, and I think there's always something to feel guilty about. I just figure i'm going to fail at something, it might as well be something less important, like housework, than my kids playing in the street half clothed. :)
Your kids are adorable, and you're doing an awesome job! You're such an awesome person!
I get that guilty feeling a lot too, and the motherhood hasn't started yet! I think you just need to do one things at a time... so you are off to a good start with your sewing and canning. Just do one little thing at a time and before you know it you will have accomplished a lot!
ReplyDeleteI just want to ditto what everyone has said!
ReplyDeleteYou are also miles ahead of me, and I don't have two kids added into the mix!