Just Keep Swimming.

I'm back from a rather indulgent blog break. Am ready to pull out the pen keyboard and write. Blogging usually comes easily for me. I always have something to share and say. But, I've had a bit of a blogging-motivation problem as of late.

My little family received some awful news two weeks ago and I've been really down. Blogging hasn't been high on my list of to-dos. Moping has been #1. Crying #2. My priorities have been all askew.

All of us are hit with hard news at times. "It's not fair" moments are not unfamiliar to anyone. My family, however, seems to have more than our share of them. We've been changing life directions so often, and for so long, because of bad news that I'm downright dizzy. I'm ready for a little stability. A little bit of boring. Boring sounds nice.

Anyway, blah. I'm just feeling blah right now. Two weeks of blah. I wonder how long blah will stick around. I hope not long.

It's funny how life doesn't stop during such sad times. Even when I'd like it to for a little while. I feel like I'm treading water. I fool myself to thinking escape will make me feel better, but running away never does. Happy moments bring the fresh air in. I just have to tell myself to keep swimming. To search out those special moments and to hold them close. They are what I want to remember; not the sad. They will keep me afloat.
Amidst the blah, some exciting things have happened. First, my oldest is now a public schooler. Yes-sir-ee. I can barely believe it. And miracle of miracles, I didn't cry as she loaded the kindergarten bus. I thought I was going to, but I was strong. I watched her load the bus, but then hopped in my car and followed it all the way to the elementary school because I was worried. So, maybe I'm not THAT strong. She was in heaven, however. Complete and utter happiness to be in class with her besties from the neighborhood.
Also, the Scottish-Hawaiian wedding happened last weekend and was a huge success! The bride was beautiful, the food was fabulous, the kiddos were a darling, hilarious handful. It was the event of the year, let me tell you. My handsome boys looked adorable in their kilts. I designed menus and place cards for the luncheon; they looked pretty next to my mom's Hawaiian centerpieces.

The only bad thing was that I had a horrible case of the stomach flu. And then I handed the flu off to my brother, the groom, who was very sick on his wedding night and over the first honeymoon days. Oh, my. I feel so guilty. I want to call him to see if he is feeling better, but I think calling on the honeymoon would only add insult to injury. Crossing my fingers that it didn't last long.

And crossing my fingers for brighter days ahead.

COMING UP ON SHERBET BLOSSOM:
Some fun giveaways.
A Formspring-requested Outfitting post.
A fun & easy jewelry tutorial.
My new makeup & beauty favs.
Some seriously fun cards.
Another "May I Suggest" all about kitchen.

13 comments

  1. Oh Miss Hannah, I have been thinking about you a lot lately. I understand your frustration all too well and I know how hard it is to keep your chin up. You're doing a lovely job of it though.

    Love the wedding pics. You did a beautiful job with the designs!

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  2. Thinking and praying for you and your sweet family during this hard time!

    The wedding pictures of your kiddos are adorable.

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  3. Love the first day of school pics and the wedding pics. Those pictures of the baby in the kilt are just.too.much.

    I'm so sorry you're in a valley right now. Can't wait to see you and hopefully take your mind off the blahs!

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  4. We missed you today Hannah. I hope you are doing okay. Thinking of you.

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  5. i always take a breather by getting outside... talking a walk in nature... stopping to smell the roses... or driving down to the beach to sit & listen to the waves crash on the beach rocks!
    perhaps you can visualize something more peaceful so the "blahs" go away.
    thinking of you...

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  6. I hope all will be well for you soon.

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  7. I completely understand your sentiments. I'm sorry you got some bad news and hope that you have happier days ahead.

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  8. hope things get better soon.
    lots of love,
    melis

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  9. I hope there will be brighter days in your life very soon.
    I keep you and your family in my thoughts.
    xo.

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  10. Hey, I didn't cry either when Tan went to school! I was so shocked, and then I felt bad that I wasn't crying! lol. Anyways, sorry to hear your bad news too. I hope you find peace. You're a strong woman!!

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  11. Hoping for happier days ahead!

    I love that you hopped in your car and followed the bus to school. Sounds EXACTLY like something I will do when the time comes. In addition to hanging outside the school and peaking in windows, hoping the crazy mom will go unnoticed!

    Hang in there!

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  12. I feel for you in every word that you wrote Hannah. Stuff happens and that which we endure makes us only stronger. I hope you're better and your brother is too.

    The Scottish_Hawaiian looks beautiful and I love the photo of your little one in her backpack. So adorable!

    Wishing you a much better week!

    xoxo

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